wretchedness of a soul

there was a hole in my world，

where i used to be,i fall from there.

spring is missing,

my life's autumn is here,

the loving memories are being reminsing.,

sometimes the grief is calm,sometimes it harms.

budset destroyed twice before it blooms.

budding among the ruins i think,

there was a hole in my world,

where i used to be，i fall from there.

Words of a wretched soul

Dear self,
   at the end of each day why you are left alone,
Why the light of the world lightens you temporarily,when you are already living in darkness,
Why for a while the outsiders make you smile,while rest of the time you had to stay with your tears,
Why everytime you try to find meaning out of your life,life seems absurd to you,
If you carry a beautiful soul then why everyone leaves you,
If life is beautiful where can you find beauty?
If life is for living,how can you be worthy for living?

tears

I never get embarassed of my tears,my tears are the  witness of the greatest courage,the courage to bear loss and sufferings.

wretchedness

Everything is falling apart,
its too late to restart，
none is left to trust，
the young buds of the heart  has turned into ashes and dust.
I am lost in a meaningless world,
everything is falling apart.

  I want to turn away but its too late to flee.
my soul is wretched but none is able to see.
the world is too chaotic to me,
though with a moisty eyes and broken heart,
all I wish to be free.